Wednesday, 15 February 2012
Sunday, 09 January 2011
someday you will miss me.
"And then we hugged each other tighter than we ever had before knowing that we would never again..."
Maybe this world is another planets hell.
But when I look at him I see all of those memories of us, and I wonder maybe he's seeing them too.
I just want a guy who saves my texts to look at when he misses me.
Everything will be beautiful and nothing will hurt.
in that moment I felt my heart break. I thought "I can't live without you. I don't want to live without you." And then it slowly crept into my mind that no matter how bad I wanted or needed you, it wouldn't matter, somehow, and very painfully I was sure that my life would continue. With or without you, right?
"how long before i'm just a memory?"
Go ahead and just kiss her, but make sure you do it when i'm looking so you can stab the knife a bit deeper.
My eyes hurt from all the tears I let fall for you.
I was a dreamer before you went and let me down
I'm not suppost to cry right now. I'm supposed to laugh with you. You're supposed to be in love with me.
I missed 11:11 again because I was still sleeping. I hate going to sleep. I don't hate sleeping, I love sleeping. My whole world disappears for a while. But I hate going to sleep. The moments before you sleep are so horrible. Everything I tried to avoid thinking about the whole day bump into my mind and won't leave. So now i'm trying to avoid that by staying up watching movies until i fall asleep during the movie. I don't have to think. I know it sounds a bit exaggerated and dramatic but I have to do that for a while because I don't think I can handle all my thoughts.
Get over him. He's not even worth it. He isn't worth your time or tears. Yeah, you might have loved him and I know that and I know you can't see yourself with anyone other than him. I get that. I've been there. But why should you spend all your time sitting at home, all alone, wondering where he is, and who he's with? Do you honestly think he is thinking about you? No. Sure, it hurts; the fact that he is out there falling in and out of love with other girls. yeah, you will see him with another girl. Prepare yourself, because it will hurt. He will hold her a little close and squeeze her hand a little tighter just because he knows you're watching. He knows it's killing you, and that is why he will do it. Don't let him get to you, because that is exactly what he wants. Don't give him what he wants, he doesn't deserve it. Give it time, he will be sorry, trust me. When he finally sees you with some other guy, who isn't him, with a perfect smile on your face, he will realize the mistake he made in letting you go. When he decided he just didn't love you the same. Trust me, he'll be sorry. Don't spend your nights waiting for that phone call that you know you won't get. When he walks past you, he will look past you, pretend he doesn't see you. I'm not gonna lie to you, it will hurt. It will hurt... a lot. But you know what you're gonna do? You are going to hold your head up. You will show him you're better than him, and you don't need him in your life, that you never really needed him anyway. And the day you finally feel that, you'll realize why things never worked out.
- Your heart
Even if you think the flame has died, there’s at least one lyric that’ll hit that last hot spot, and then you’ll find yourself as fucked as you were the day you lied and said you never wanted to see him again.
The hardest part of this whole situation is that neither of us knows what’s going on. Neither of us knows what each other is thinking and we’re both trying to make decisions based on information we don’t know. I’m scared to tell you my feelings just in case you don’t feel the same way.
I don’t know what we are. Sometimes I feel like we are friends, sometimes I feel like we’re more than friends. And sometimes it feels like I’ve never known you at all.
You’ve been down for a while now and I would trade anything to see you happy again.
I looked over my shoulder and your eyes were closed as you danced with her and held her close. I couldn’t help but stare.
I’ve said it once, I’ve said it twice, I’ve said it a thousand fucking times. That I’m okay, that I’m fine, that it’s all just in my mind. But this has got the best of me and I can’t seem to sleep.
Most days it would be okay just today it really isn’t.
So, where are you at, which places have you been? And where are you going? Time is kindly flowing, so fast since I saw you…
If I only knew that the days were slipping past, the good things never last, that you were crying…
And yes, I walked away, but somehow I always thought that you would come to take me home again… but you didn’t.
It’s hard when you’re standing two inches behind me and I can feel your breath on my neck. It’s hard to look into your eyes and know that you and I don’t feel the same…
Tuesday, 09 November 2010
I couldn't do it anymore. I couldn't handle the emotional pain that you have been putting me through anymore. Even though you refuse to admit to doing anything wrong and you probably never will admit to it. I'm not sorry for anything. Looking back we've both messed up. We've both probably hurt each other more than any other person ever will. You say I've changed, this is true because I don't need you anymore. I finally realized you bring me down more than any other person I've known has. I'm such a stronger person now. You've changed more than you know or will admit to. Tell me I'm wrong, it won't change the truth. You told me I wasn't the person you wanted anymore. I can see that now. What we had was unexplainable and I will never forget or regret it. We've both grown in different directions and I hope those different directions lead us somewhere amazing. I'm upset about what is happening now. However, it hasn't had a huge affect on me like everything else has. For once, I didn't freak out, I didn't break down, I didn't hurt myself. I didn't even post a ridiculous status aim towards you on Face book either. It just proved to me you're not the person I used to love. I want you to know I am truly happy and think about you from time to time. I am also not mad at you and I do still claim to know you. I hope you have happiness like I do. I hope things don't stay like this.
She said she used to cry at least once a day not because she was sad, but because the world was so beautiful and life was so short.
that's the thing about jealousy; it chews at your soul, and it doesn't stop until you let go.
Stop right there; don't say another word. I truly don't want to hear what you have to say. We're through. You fucked it up. Everything was perfect, until you decided it wasn't.
Hey, listen. I'm comfortable around you, and these flirt sessions we have pretty much rock, but you have to win my heart, because right now it's stuck with some jerk who honestly doesn't deserve it. But I can't do anything about it right now because I fell harder for him than I did for anybody else, and unless he randomly disappears off the face of the earth one day, my stomach is still gonna drop to my feet when I see him. So, please, win my heart over.
I'm sorry things went so downhill. We were so sure things were going to be amazing and spectacular, but now I'm starting to see everything I didn't want to believe. I'm sorry I stopped loving you. I'm sorry you did, too. Maybe things aren't meant to be. I'm going to miss you, but it's time we hold our heads high, bite our lips and get over each other. I think it's the best way. Maybe we'll find someone better. Then again, maybe we won't.
As great as we could have been, we weren't. And there's no point of dwelling on what we could have had 'cause it won't happen. You didn't waste your time, I did.
I know that we won't ever really be close again, and that hurts more than you know. But all I can really ask for right now is for you to be a decent person. Maybe even a decent friend. Because I need something, anything. I just need some ounce of hope that things will look up again for us, that we haven't lost everything. Because right now, all I have are memories, which hurt to remember, knowing I won't ever have them back. I wonder if you know how much this hurts for me, to go each day without you, to see you not care. And there are moments, when I think that maybe this day will be different, and maybe things are turning around, but those are just moments that fade away quickly. And I know that in the long run that you'll never be here. You will never be here for me again and that hurts because no matter what, I have and will always be there for you.
Tuesday, 12 October 2010
"Gave you all i had and you tossed it in the trash, you tossed it in the trash yes you did." -Bruno Mars [love him!]
And there was nothing, no texts, no phone calls, no you. I watched the sun go down without a blink of you.
Walk away, I'm barely breathing as I'm laying on the floor.Take my heart as you're leaving, I don't need it anymore..
I'm starting to think that maybe, just maybe, this was a game you played from the start.
I remember every word you said, okay? I'm not naive and I'm not stupid. I've been broken before. I can deal with it. I'm not scared of moving on with my life, it just hurts right now. It just hurts.
I'm always here at the side of your stage, let you live your life pretend I'm okay.
After all that's said and done, I still think you're amazing. I still cherish every moment I ever spend with you and every smile you brought to my face. I'll forever be thankful that someone like you was brought into my life, even if it had to be taken away too soon. You were my miracle; you were my fairytale I got to live.
When we first started talking I didn't even want to get involved with anyone, heck I didn't even know you. But you were so good to me and you were so easy to talk to and little by little I found myself falling even harder for you.
You know those parts in the movies where the guy hears something that reminds me of her? The moment that he realizes he had made a mistake in leaving her or letting her slip out of his hands? You know that part? Well i've always wanted to have one of those guys. Who will realize and drop everything that he had going just because he realized that I was more important and he just couldn't and wouldn't let me go.
Wednesday, 29 September 2010
I just don't know anymore. It is what it is. I miss you.
When you're dreaming with a broken heart, giving up is the hardest part. She takes you in with her crying eyes, then all at once you have to say goodbye wondering could you stay my love? Will you wake up by my side? No she can't, cuz she's gone gone gone gone gone.